Paroxycology

Juror #2 (2025)

Courtroom Drama

I have been on a kick lately where I’ve been watching films based on how high they have been rated either on IMDB or Rottentomatoes. This one had pretty high marks so I gave it a shot. This was not groundbreaking to me, though good. They introduced a unique conumdrum but it wasn’t enough to keep me hooked. However, it was more than enough to keep others interested, so don’t go by my experience – you may have a different one. 

Final Grade: C-

If I had know this was directed by Clint Eastwood, I would have skipped it altogether. His movies are just not my cup of tea. 

Coward-ess

Topic: Medicare, Medicaid, SNAP, and SSI Cuts
So I needed to take a moment to put on the record that in all honesty, I expect no better from any Republican because anyone who would pass legislation against the hungry children of their own country being provided adequate sustenance is no more than human excrement. If you can stomach aligning yourself with that, let alone voting to make that happen, you are less than human, which is the entirety of the Republican party. But what Lisa Murkowski (R-Alaska) Tooltip Image
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did is next level cruel.

Today when the US Senate had a bill to vote on that defund billions of dollars to medicare, medicaid, snap, and social security – programs that literally keep folks alive, Lisa Murkowski, senator from Alaska was and continues to be against it. However, in the she voted yes on the bill after making backroom deals that would exempt her state from the harms that this bill would cause. So let me tell you why she’s a stank. She had the ability to block this bill in the protection of the entire United States Citizenry but she didn’t. The fact that she thinks her state or anyone really, needs to be protected from it is an admission that she know voting for it for ANYBODY was wrong. She had the chance to be a hero and took the cowards way out.

Here is what this silly bitch doesn’t get: Now that they got her vote and the bill is passed, they don’t need to honor it. She had to put that yes vote up before they delivered the goods. They are NOT going to carve out anything for Alaska and if they do it will be a pittance of whatever she sold her fellow countrymen out for. And she said, “I’m doing what’s right for Alaska.” Bitch, do you not realize you are a United States senator? Not an Alaskan state senator. When the harms of the passing of this bill comes to pass (if it passes the House of Representatives) I look forward to watching her on Fox News talking bout, “I can’t believe they tricked me. Tricked our state.” And I am going to be right there to remind her that when you live in a den of vipers…

Claws and Effect

If your cat is a bully, and tries to run up on my cats, my cats will jump your cat(s). Havock and Chaos will fuck this whole shit up if you put paws on ’em. On Gawd, it’s gang gang around here all day, every day. #InTeacupsNameAmen 😃 ❤ 😾😾

Obama phones were nearly free. Ain’t nobody paying $500 for no damned Trump phone w/Russian surveillance apps preloaded on it.

The Exorcism

Don’t get it twisted… Shirleen bout dat life! 🤣🤣

Nothing frightens me more than a person unwilling to learn, even at their own expense. There’s a darkness in that I will never understand.

Earlier this week someone posted on BlueSky that Laura Loomer (one of the most lurid, repulsive, repugnant, vile snakes to every slither on this planet) looks like a sleep paralysis demon and real talk… I can’t unsee it.
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Looks like a Gremlin that ate after midnight.

After a half decade in my place my landlord has finally permission to get a pet. I was a dog guy all my life til we had to start picking up feces, now I’m a cat dude. 

I LOVE that since the election I havent heard anything from or about Matt Gaetz, Kirsten Sinema, or Joe Manchin. That’s three less people to cause untold amounts of harm on folks. 

What it feels like to live in Eugene.
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I just saw the J-Lo ‘Not Like Us’ performance and real talk… her whole team needs to be fired. Folks need to be brought up on felony charges. #NotEvenJoking

Black Phone (2022)

Horror

One of the worst films I’ve ever seen and no I’m not joking. I would give this a grade of F but that’s not low enough.

Final Grade: G

The reason this film scored so low with me is because it is not the story of how a little boy escapes, it is of how a little boy dies. In this film the boy could only escape because of a supernatural connection, but not only that, he needed a psychic connection to supplement the supernatural one. In other words, no matter who you look at it, that boy died, regardless of how the film played it out. If a little boy was actually in that position, there would be no other little boys to call him and there would certainly be no psychic toddler aged sister to tell the police where you were. I think the film would’ve been much better if 1.) they had the little boy escape through his own devices and not have to depend on others that would not exist in the real world. And 2.) A motive. I get that in the real world, these things sometimes happen at random but that is incredibly rare. There is always a reason, be it past trauma, mental health, sacrifice, inner demons, etc. We know that there is a pattern because he only chooses little boys, so that they didn’t reveal a motive  super troubling, and overall a very unsatisfying film. I would’ve loved to seen the kid escaped and it be believable. They really missed the mark with this one. #JustMyOpinion

Turns out every Oscar Award given before next year’s (2026) was illegitimate. How were people allowed to vote if they didn’t see all the movies in a category. #Frauds #OscarsSoWhite

Find Me

The song and the singing are great but what makes this one truly stand out is that they employed a symphony sized string section, and the sound is so rich and profound because of that. I listen to the instrumental of this regularly. For me, the most baffling thing about this video is that it was filmed in 2016. Millie Bobby Brown was born in 2004. That means they had a 12 year old girl mock singing about heartbreak. What?!?!? She did a masterful job, but I stand adamantly that this would’ve been received better with an adult female, perhaps the artist who is actually singing. Fantastic track nonetheless. #MeditationMusic

Fight or Flight (2025)

Action/Comedy

I don’t know what made me put this film on. I think I was looking at reviews on rottentomatoes.com and the ratings for this was favorable but I never expected it to be as good as it was. It offhandedly reminded me of Kill Bill, Snakes on a Plane, and Bullet Train but to me was better than all three. That doesn’t mean it actually was better, I’m just saying I enjoyed it more. Non-stop action, and quite funny in parts. Never knew Josh Hartnett had this performance in him. This might be my favorite roll of his.

Final Grade: B+

The scene towards the end where he was fighting while he was high, and seeing stuff that wasn’t actually happening? I laughed harder at that than I do at most actual comedy movies. The plot was also quite meaningful to me cuz I’m always going to believe that children should be allowed to be children.

What people don’t get about the celebration of Nottoway Plantation burning is that places like those could have literally been the inspiration behind poltergeist. Plantations are cemeteries. And people knowing this were still disrespectful enough to have weddings and events on the graves of our ancestors. So yeah, fuck Nottoway and every other Plantation.

Wanna hear the most disturbing and bizarre news story of the week?

I need to preface this by saying, the biggest way the internet has changed me is that I no longer believe anything at face value. I question EVERYTHING. And though this is reported by multiple, reputable news organizations I still am having a hard time believing it.

A middle schooler momma purchased him guns and ammunition to commit a school shooting in Texas, in exchange for babysitting his younger siblings so she could go out. The two things I just cannot wrap my head around is:

  1. The grandmomma turned them in after she caught him at her house beating a live bullet with a hammer to try to make it go off. WHAT?!?!?!?
  2. This middle schooler allegedly had an IUD stored away at his house that they found during the investigation. I’m trying to figure out how a middle schooler made an explosive device OR where the momma was able to get one from.

The whole thing just got so many parts that my mind can’t seem to put them together in any coherent way.

Google: Ashley Pardo

Red headed folks are not black. They’re cool but not black. The only red heads who are black are, in fact, black red heads. They exist.

Payback

He just looks so tired. Mary J Blige needs to sue whoever covered her song like this.  🤣

Supposed to be some afternoon thunderstorms today. #BringIt ⚡🌩️

Black Republicans

How black republicans be looking at the 92% and 80% as outsiders looking in. 🤣🤣

White women: If you running from the monster and you fall down but you were wearing flats… That’s when I start rooting for the monster. #HorrorMovieTropes

“Come on vacation, leave on probation.” I had no less than four people tell me that when I first moved to Oregon. Beginning to see why.

Morning Affirmations

Please join me for one of my morning affirmations. Just a reminder to myself of how I need to move through the world. 🤣🤣

Live To Tell (Instrumental)

To this day, the instrumental for this song remains one of the most haunting (but beautiful) pieces of music from the 80s. #MeditationMusic

Female friends, I need to be clear about something:
If we ever hang out, I don’t care where we go – to the movies, the mall, to the bar, to the club – wherever: If we go together, we are leaving together. I don’t give a fuck who you met. Whether you think so or not, from the time we meet up til the time I make sure you make it in your front door afterwards, I am charged with your safety. I don’t care how cute he is, or how well dressed, or if he look like he got money. I don’t care how well you know him – he could be an usher at your church for all I care… I don’t know him! Now once we get you home and I watch you walk through your front door safely, after that you can do whatever the fuck you want to do. But 1.) I’m not ending up on the news cuz you just had to go chill with that dude. 2.) I didn’t realize until the past couple of years just how horrible some dudes can be. And 3.) Because you are someone I care about, your safety is more important to me than how you might feel about it at that moment.

Assassin's Creed: Shadow

Assassin’s Creed: Shadow launched today.

Having played Odyssey, then Origins and having started Valhalla maybe two months ago – I am adding this to my list of games I must play, right up there with Assassin’s Creed: Mirage.

I’m a have to do some research on SZA. I don’t quite get her obsession with bugs. I need to look that up. 😊

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One of Them Days (2025)

Comedy

I think this might be one of my favorite comedy films from the past half decade, maybe whole decade. I don’t look goofy or silly stuff, and most of the film was not that so when it did happen, I didn’t mind. Keke & SZA – both of them killed it. The kinship felt real and I would argue that’s probably because it is real. Now I’m gonna need ‘One of Them Weeks’, ‘One of Them Months’, and ‘One of Them Years.’ 😂❤️

Final Grade: A

There were, of course some things that could’ve been better but I don’t fault the movie. King Lolo being willing to kill someone over a pair of sneakers he no longer needed felt like a stretch. That he’d kill girls, even more of a stretch when you could figure out more uses for someone alive than dead BUT they needed that in the plot because without it, how do you move the story forward. And this is just me being nitpicky – I didn’t mind the Lolo storyline because watching them navigate it meant more screen time for Keke and SZA and I’m here for it.

As of the 1st of the year the only drinks I consume are tea, milk and water. Time to buy a nut milk maker so I can make my own almond milk. #HealthyLiving

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Flow (2024)

It is incredibly rare I watch animated or family films. The only reason I put this on is because 1.) the ratings seemed unreal and 2.) I like cats. Had no idea what to expect. Was underwhelmed the first 10 minutes, then this movie blew my top off , it was sooooo good. Fun, funny, whimsical, tragic, and full of heart. I LOVED IT!
Grade: A+

I would never EVER had guessed that a movie with not a single word of dialogue could engage me like this. The entire movie I kept trying to guess where it was going and I was not right a single time. It kept me surprised until the very end. The scene with the bird with the broken wing rising into the sky, it was 10 minutes after that scene was over that I realized what had happened. Just a fantastic movie from beginning to end. 10/10

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I don’t think anyone has ever been a best friend to anyone else like Woodstock is to Snoopy. He is always warm, loyal and genuinely loves his friend. 

April Fool's Day (1986)

This was the first horror movie I ever saw in a theatre. I was barely elementary school aged and my mom told my big brother he could only go to the movies if he took me and my sister. He’d told her he was going to see something else (I can’t remember what) and then switched it up when we got there and told us not to tell mommy when we got home. We didn’t. I had nightmares that night. So I decided to rewatch all these decades later and now realize this movie only seemed scary because I had never seen one before. 😂
Grade: C-

I was too young to understand what I was looking at when I went with my brother and sister but got dang… Every other line had something to do with sex. They should’ve just axed the horror elements, put some breasts in this and just made it a porno. I can’t remember a movie being this sexual without showing any – I mean, every friggin joke was about boning? Well, I reckon now we know what poor writing looks like. If you have nothing to say, talk about sex.

Ms Miller

One of my favorite sketches from ‘A Black Lady Sketch Show.’ Gabrielle Dennis is one of the best all around actresses I’ve ever seen. I also need to shout out the young ladies who were so good in this I hope I see every one of them in projects in the future. They were all so good! 😂😂

The Heretic (2024)

Fantastic film. The writing was incredibly clever and the acting was brilliant. Some people would call it horror, some would call it psychological thriller.  All I know is the tension in parts was nearly unbearable. I felt true anxiety watching this.
Grade: A

Movies like this, filled with so much tension are why it is so hard for me to watch black horror films. I don’t mind experiencing tension like this in a movie but so many situations I see in real life where black folks are genuinely afraid and/or in harms way of something that is inescapable makes me sometimes physically ill. I felt true anxiety watching this and the last time I felt this type of anxiety in real life and much, much stronger was the George Floyd video. So I’m thrilled that no black folks were in this. I honestly don’t think I could watch if there were.

Gang Orientation

Another of the #ABLSS sketches and once again Gabrielle Dennis killed that ish. Everyone was good but every time I see this chick her range is just incredible.

All Quiet on the Western Front (2022)

I am not a person who normally watches or enjoys war or military based films. However sometimes as I’m looking for something to watch I just click on whatever the first thing I see that has a positive rating. I was pleasantly surprised here and appreciated how this film explored conflict by soldiers, not as heroes but as humans.
Grade: B-

I’m not sure this will count as spoiling but just showing appreciation for that the characters in this movie felt like real people and behaved in ways that you don’t often associate with the courageousness and honor that one associates with being in the military. I do not often think anything other than soldiers are the badasses of our society until I see them once they are back from their tours and are struggling both based on what they went through in the service and how they are treated once they return home.

You Don't Care

Preach it Rashonda! I cosign every word. 

Trump has only been in office a week and he is ten time’s as awful as he was during his last term. Feckless and hate filled. 

Detention & Deportation

A few days ago Trump announced that the only immigrants that would get detained during the mass ICE stings would be those with criminal records and not those who are here lawfully. Logic is telling me it’s not going to stop there.

Immigrants being loaded into a plane for deportation.

I get the feeling it’s not going to be a detainment facility as much as a concentration camp but here’s how to tell. Trump said they are going to round up the worst undocumented criminals and put them there. (What happened to deporting them?) When any person is an American Citizen or under the jurisdiction of the United States (which includes EVERYONE who is on this soil except for Diplomats from other countries – and you can tell the difference between a migrant and a diplomat because diplomats are normally government appointed to represent the country they are from and most of them live in or near their nation’s embassies). THEY are the only ones in the US who are not subject to US laws. Everyone else, however, is.

When you are charged with a crime in the States be it city, state, federal, misdemeanor or felony – that information is public information. So if this administrations goal is to round up the worst of the worst and put them there, it needs to be public. I need to see a newspaper, a magazine, a website that list who’s there and what crimes they committed. If you’re only rounding up criminals, we need evidence. Only I don’t think they are just rounding up criminals, and for that reason they are going to try to hide who they have there. It made sense for the ter-ror-ists who were housed there not to have their charges public because most of them committed their crimes in other countries AGAINST the United States and not necessarily on US soil when they did it. But for these migrants – 1.) They are not terrorists. 2.) They are under US jurisdiction. 3.) Crime and court information are public for all citizens in the US charged with something. This should be no different.

If it’s public, it’s a detention center. If it’s private, it’s a concentration camp. I’ma need to contact Wyden and Merkley’s offices to try to press them to bring this up before the senate. There HAS to be some public facing accountability. Stocks for private prisons just shot up.

What Kendrick did tonight was nothing short of a masterpiece. Mark my words, this half time show will be studied akin to how the movie Get Out was studied  in universities when it first dropped.

Never Scared

This might be the most gangsta sermon I’ve ever heard. Dude was preaching, sho’ ‘nough!

Conclave (2024)

I give credit where it is due, this was not nearly as boring as I thought it would be. Every movie doesn’t have to be an action movie if you have a compelling storyline, plot and characters.
Grade: B

My goodness they did the black priest dirty. But I’m not buying that sister girl didn’t know why she was there. As soon as she saw the dude she had to know that was the reason she was sent there. Ain’t no coincidence that big, it was planned. 

LOCK BOTH THEY ASSES UP!
Lock his ass up for making her feel like she needed to do this. And lock her ass up for doing it instead of leaving his ass when he requested her to do this. #Grammys

Christian Brothers & Sisters:
I’m looking for drivers for my new grocery delivery srvc.
“Jesus Took The Wheel”
#Eat&PrayAt30%Off

Eugene low temperatures for the last two weeks straight has been somewhere 19° – 27° every night. #Yikes

The Diddler

Another banger by @itsreal85vids

Pastor Matt

I always stop for any comedy that has to do with Christianity. Adele might be the funniest lady to ever do it.

I have found as I get older that music can be one of the most profound sources of therapy. #MusicIsHealing

Today in South Carolina they shut down I-85 because there is a bomb scare on an 18 Wheeler in the middle of the highway. We’re only 2 days in and I’m already tired of 2025. #Sheesh

I Met His Girl

@itsreal85vids has been on fire lately. And honestly this is perfect timing because a lot of us really need the laughs. 

How Thanksgiving for Franklin should’ve been from Jump Street. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

I can only name 3 horses: Shadowfax, Seabiscuit and Mr Ed. And no, Pegasus is not a horse. Horses can’t fly. Unicorn maybe?

The Thing That Broke Me

I remember weeping openly when I saw their children in those jails separated from their parents, sleeping on floors with aluminum blankets. Photo ops of white politicians in dollar tree suits peering at them through the bars like they were zoo exhibits. That image sat with me as I was in the voting booth. So imagine my shock to learn that they saw their own children go through that and still voted for the dude who made that happen. That’s when I was done. The last estimates to be released from exit polling shows that Trump carried the Latino population by 62%. I still feel myself struggling if that they cared this little about themselves and especially their children, why should I? I do, of course, but it feels weird to have to question it . 

Rome & Julissa

Before Greg and Janine on Abbott Elementary, there was Rome & Julissa. 

Assassin's Creed: Odyssey

State of Decay 2 is a derivetive State of Decay 1 which, in its day, was an incredibly consequentory game. Many people ascribe to the theories of the SOD2 universe because its lessons makes it easier to survive in the regular universe. 

Odyssey is the first game from this franchise that I played, and real talk… I was bored to pieces. Then I was talking to one of my gamer buddies (Tylo) and he was like, “keep going.” So after like maybe a half a year I put it back in, and tried it. Still bored. But this time I kept going and almost an hour in, the Title Screen popped up. I thought I was already playing the game, and it turns out I was just in the intro. I was about to put it down again and decided I would go to at least level ten, then I could tell Tylo I gave it a shot and it just wasn’t for me. Then…

One or two missions after the intro the game introduced a mechanic that literally changed the game for me. Out of 10 stars, the game went from like a 4 to a 13. And to this day I have still never seen another game with this exact mechanic, though there are some that are close, none of them comes near the level of fun and satisfaction. Then as you get deeper into the game it becomes super familiar, which is also nice, becasue all of the Greek mythology I studied in grade school – all of a sudden, I was revisiting it. Of civilizations outside of American, I would say that Ancient Greece was the one we studied most closely and spent the most curriculum on, so for me it was an incredible game. Even if you didn’t study Greek mythology or know anything about Greece this game is still a banger and I highly recommend it.

Grade: A

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Plenty to be thankful for. 

Midnight Mass

Me speaking on a decision Ubisoft made while participating in an online race against around 60 other racers. I don’t recommend it to everyone but for those who like racing, I have had a good time in #RidersRidge. It’s been out for a few years now so you can probably find a good deal on it on the interwebs.

Back maybe a year ago I used to do a stream two or three times a week on Twitch called ‘Midnight Mass.” In the game #RidersRepublic, they hold an event called a Mass Race every half hour (or I think it’s 20 minutes now) where you have to do sections of cycling, flying, and skiing. Since one always occurs at midnight, I would participate in that one and talk about things happening in the world during the race. This particular Midnight Mass my focus was on Ubisoft and an unsustainable model they just adapted that I think will hurt their business tremendously. It, in fact, has caused me to hesitate buying games from them. The Mass Race is usually about 15 minutes total.

Purpose of this Page

Believe it or not: This website is actually my legacy project. Mortality is truly frightening to think about. Recently I begun to think about what it is I would leave behind so that the generations after me would know I was here. At the same time, I wanted something for my family to be able to hand down, so that they will always have a record of who I was, how I lived, and in these trying times, a chronicle that detailed exactly where I stood in history.
 
I have been on various social media since 2007. Do you know how much typing I’ve done since then? So I’ve started downloading all of my records from all the sites I’ve been on. I also have been posting a lot on this page because when I’m done, I am taking all of the important parts, that described me and my life and I am publishing them. 

Amazon has this great service where you can self-publish which is amazing because a lot of folks who have literary works but have no publish house backing are taking to Amazon to get their works out. All I need is a few copies to hand to family members for safe keeping and Amazon will allow me to publish only the amount I need.

The reason I am pursuing paper books in addition to this website is because I don’t know that there will be an internet or electricity in 2080 or that the public will have access to it. Publishing will allow my words to carry on without the need for technology. Picking the parts I want to include and editing will be a beast, but more than worth it. 

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