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Adventures Under A Darkened Sky

My playlist for driving around aimlessly through my city at night. 
(Note: This is only about 20% of this playlist. If you are connected to me on Spotify you can find the whole playlist there.)

Helldivers 2

This one really surprised me. When I game, my preferences lead me in three directions: one with a fantastic story, one that is open world, or one that is single player. It’s best if it’s all three however Helldivers 2 isn’t any of these. I know… SHOCKING!!!

When I first started gaming, my friend started me on WoW: World of Warcraft. It was fun playing with him but then he went and got a good job and left me in that world by myself. When I started having to coop with strangers as a noob, it was only then I realized how toxic gamers can be. I was new and trying hard to learn but they were super hardcore, super impatient, and some were downright mean. I had such a bad experience I swore off of multiplayer games. It’s only been recently that I have a dedicated gaming group of people who have mutual respect for each other regardless of skill level. Now when I go into games I don’t feel alone or bullied because my boys are with me.

It was one of them that got me to give multiplayer gaming another try and he suggested Helldivers 2 because he’s also playing it. The game doesn’t have a clear goal (in my opinion), it is limited open world and while you could play it single player, it isn’t meant for that. It’s multiplayer is where it excels and is an absolute blast when playing it with friends. You are fighting enemies on different planets to spread democracy and liberty and FREEEEDOOOOM! ! ! ! ! throughout the galaxy. That’s it. Nothing complicated at all. If you don’t like multiplayer, you still might want to give this one a try. You’ll be pleasantly surprised.

Grade: A-

There is a place called Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse that I will never consider eating at because I don’t know if it’s actually Ruth’s or Chris’s. Make your mind up already!

Authentic Friendship

My favorite kinds of friends are the ones that match your energy, no matter what you are feeling. 😂🎶

Just learned today that Oregon is the only US State that has a two sided flag. The picture on the front is not the same picture that’s on the back. #HowAwesomeIsThat

Today We Mourn

#RIP to that soldier’s nuts. 🤣🤣

Trying to impress your girl be like...

This video is only made possible because of a glitch in the game that made it so when you repaired cars they’d blow up. It was in the game for like 4 months before they fixed it. Good times. #StateOfDecay2

The biggest fail in movie making history (to me) is there being a 28 Days Later, 28 Weeks Later, 28 Years Later but skipping over 28 Months Later. Even if they missed the 28th month window, they could’ve dropped it at anytime between the 28th month mark and the premiere of 28 Years Later. 

When An NPC Tests Your Gangsta (v2)

I need you to understand how good the world they created in #WatchDogs2 is. This rave has nothing to do with anything, it’s just an occurrence in the game world. But someone spent the extra time to program that one dude coming to mean mug you if you start dancing with them. That’s a level of detail that made this game amazing. 

When An NPC Tests Your Gangsta (v1)

Dude… #WatchDogs2 is definitely on my top five games. It was super enjoyable but the game is full of random occurrences in the world like this one, so it’s incredibly spontaneous. Someone had to take the time to program this little side scene in the game and it’s stuff like this (as awful as it is) that made the game immersive and more real feeling to me. 

Where You Going?

This might be the first video game Tiktok video I ever did. #StateofDecay2 #ZombiesZombiesEverywhere

I go out of my way not to patrol other folks speech but I still get annoyed sometimes. People saying “I volunteer as tribute” instead of just “I volunteer” is annoying.

Present Mood: Vibing (& Reflecting)
#WatchDogs2

Bouncing

Kendrick even got the Tiny Chef bouncing. 🤣🤣🎶🎵

Juror #2 (2025)

Courtroom Drama

I have been on a kick lately where I’ve been watching films based on how high they have been rated either on IMDB or Rottentomatoes. This one had pretty high marks so I gave it a shot. This was not groundbreaking to me, though good. They introduced a unique conumdrum but it wasn’t enough to keep me hooked. However, it was more than enough to keep others interested, so don’t go by my experience – you may have a different one. 

Final Grade: C-

If I had know this was directed by Clint Eastwood, I would have skipped it altogether. His movies are just not my cup of tea. 

Claws and Effect

If your cat is a bully, and tries to run up on my cats, my cats will jump your cat(s). Havock and Chaos will fuck this whole shit up if you put paws on ’em. On Gawd, it’s gang gang around here all day, every day. #InTeacupsNameAmen 😃 ❤ 😾😾

The Exorcism

Don’t get it twisted… Shirleen bout dat life! 🤣🤣

South of Midnight

I don’t think it is a coincidence that this game was released just before the movie Sinners, which is also an exploration in the southern, creole mysticism of the black American culture.

I don’t think it is a coincidence that this game was released just before the movie Sinners, which is also an exploration in the southern, creole mysticism of the black American culture. The heaviest part of Sinners, outside of the vampires, was the use of hoodoo by the character Annie to protect them from whatever evil awaited them. (They did not yet know it was vampires. In fact, they thought it was Haints, which is incredibly well used in South of Midnight.) Anyone who plays this game is going to learn about Haints, about Seers, and other lore of those who practice the spiritual arts. 

This game is more linear than it is open world, and the story is a good one and an important one to the game. One of the most striking things about it, is though there are characters of all races, this is a uniquely black game. It was one of the only ones I can think of that caters to the black American experience specifically. There are not very many black games, and of the ones that do exist they can often be attributed to black culture throughout the disapora – like Assasins’ Creed: Origins which is based on ancient Egypt. However, this a black American game. In other words, the story that plays out is specific to black American culture and that is super important since we have very few games that are this specific. I really enjoyed it and for that reason I’m giving it a :

Grade: B+

Nothing frightens me more than a person unwilling to learn, even at their own expense. There’s a darkness in that I will never understand.

Earlier this week someone posted on BlueSky that Laura Loomer (one of the most lurid, repulsive, repugnant, vile snakes to every slither on this planet) looks like a sleep paralysis demon and real talk… I can’t unsee it.
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Looks like a Gremlin that ate after midnight.

After a half decade in my place my landlord has finally permission to get a pet. I was a dog guy all my life til we had to start picking up feces, now I’m a cat dude. 

I LOVE that since the election I havent heard anything from or about Matt Gaetz, Kirsten Sinema, or Joe Manchin. That’s three less people to cause untold amounts of harm on folks. 

What it feels like to live in Eugene.
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I just saw the J-Lo ‘Not Like Us’ performance and real talk… her whole team needs to be fired. Folks need to be brought up on felony charges. #NotEvenJoking

Black Phone (2022)

Horror

One of the worst films I’ve ever seen and no I’m not joking. I would give this a grade of F but that’s not low enough.

Final Grade: G

The reason this film scored so low with me is because it is not the story of how a little boy escapes, it is of how a little boy dies. In this film the boy could only escape because of a supernatural connection, but not only that, he needed a psychic connection to supplement the supernatural one. In other words, no matter who you look at it, that boy died, regardless of how the film played it out. If a little boy was actually in that position, there would be no other little boys to call him and there would certainly be no psychic toddler aged sister to tell the police where you were. I think the film would’ve been much better if 1.) they had the little boy escape through his own devices and not have to depend on others that would not exist in the real world. And 2.) A motive. I get that in the real world, these things sometimes happen at random but that is incredibly rare. There is always a reason, be it past trauma, mental health, sacrifice, inner demons, etc. We know that there is a pattern because he only chooses little boys, so that they didn’t reveal a motive  super troubling, and overall a very unsatisfying film. I would’ve loved to seen the kid escaped and it be believable. They really missed the mark with this one. #JustMyOpinion

Find Me

The song and the singing are great but what makes this one truly stand out is that they employed a symphony sized string section, and the sound is so rich and profound because of that. I listen to the instrumental of this regularly. For me, the most baffling thing about this video is that it was filmed in 2016. Millie Bobby Brown was born in 2004. That means they had a 12 year old girl mock singing about heartbreak. What?!?!? She did a masterful job, but I stand adamantly that this would’ve been received better with an adult female, perhaps the artist who is actually singing. Fantastic track nonetheless. #MeditationMusic

Fight or Flight (2025)

Action/Comedy

I don’t know what made me put this film on. I think I was looking at reviews on rottentomatoes.com and the ratings for this was favorable but I never expected it to be as good as it was. It offhandedly reminded me of Kill Bill, Snakes on a Plane, and Bullet Train but to me was better than all three. That doesn’t mean it actually was better, I’m just saying I enjoyed it more. Non-stop action, and quite funny in parts. Never knew Josh Hartnett had this performance in him. This might be my favorite roll of his.

Final Grade: B+

The scene towards the end where he was fighting while he was high, and seeing stuff that wasn’t actually happening? I laughed harder at that than I do at most actual comedy movies. The plot was also quite meaningful to me cuz I’m always going to believe that children should be allowed to be children.

Red headed folks are not black. They’re cool but not black. The only red heads who are black are, in fact, black red heads. They exist.

Payback

He just looks so tired. Mary J Blige needs to sue whoever covered her song like this.  🤣

Black Republicans

How black republicans be looking at the 92% and 80% as outsiders looking in. 🤣🤣

White women: If you running from the monster and you fall down but you were wearing flats… That’s when I start rooting for the monster. #HorrorMovieTropes

“Come on vacation, leave on probation.” I had no less than four people tell me that when I first moved to Oregon. Beginning to see why.

Morning Affirmations

Please join me for one of my morning affirmations. Just a reminder to myself of how I need to move through the world. 🤣🤣

Live To Tell (Instrumental)

To this day, the instrumental for this song remains one of the most haunting (but beautiful) pieces of music from the 80s. #MeditationMusic

Female friends, I need to be clear about something:
If we ever hang out, I don’t care where we go – to the movies, the mall, to the bar, to the club – wherever: If we go together, we are leaving together. I don’t give a fuck who you met. Whether you think so or not, from the time we meet up til the time I make sure you make it in your front door afterwards, I am charged with your safety. I don’t care how cute he is, or how well dressed, or if he look like he got money. I don’t care how well you know him – he could be an usher at your church for all I care… I don’t know him! Now once we get you home and I watch you walk through your front door safely, after that you can do whatever the fuck you want to do. But 1.) I’m not ending up on the news cuz you just had to go chill with that dude. 2.) I didn’t realize until the past couple of years just how horrible some dudes can be. And 3.) Because you are someone I care about, your safety is more important to me than how you might feel about it at that moment.

Assassin's Creed: Shadow

Assassin’s Creed: Shadow launched today.

Having played Odyssey, then Origins and having started Valhalla maybe two months ago – I am adding this to my list of games I must play, right up there with Assassin’s Creed: Mirage.

I’m a have to do some research on SZA. I don’t quite get her obsession with bugs. I need to look that up. 😊

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One of Them Days (2025)

Comedy

I think this might be one of my favorite comedy films from the past half decade, maybe whole decade. I don’t look goofy or silly stuff, and most of the film was not that so when it did happen, I didn’t mind. Keke & SZA – both of them killed it. The kinship felt real and I would argue that’s probably because it is real. Now I’m gonna need ‘One of Them Weeks’, ‘One of Them Months’, and ‘One of Them Years.’ 😂❤️

Final Grade: A

There were, of course some things that could’ve been better but I don’t fault the movie. King Lolo being willing to kill someone over a pair of sneakers he no longer needed felt like a stretch. That he’d kill girls, even more of a stretch when you could figure out more uses for someone alive than dead BUT they needed that in the plot because without it, how do you move the story forward. And this is just me being nitpicky – I didn’t mind the Lolo storyline because watching them navigate it meant more screen time for Keke and SZA and I’m here for it.

As of the 1st of the year the only drinks I consume are tea, milk and water. Time to buy a nut milk maker so I can make my own almond milk. #HealthyLiving

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Flow (2024)

It is incredibly rare I watch animated or family films. The only reason I put this on is because 1.) the ratings seemed unreal and 2.) I like cats. Had no idea what to expect. Was underwhelmed the first 10 minutes, then this movie blew my top off , it was sooooo good. Fun, funny, whimsical, tragic, and full of heart. I LOVED IT!
Grade: A+

I would never EVER had guessed that a movie with not a single word of dialogue could engage me like this. The entire movie I kept trying to guess where it was going and I was not right a single time. It kept me surprised until the very end. The scene with the bird with the broken wing rising into the sky, it was 10 minutes after that scene was over that I realized what had happened. Just a fantastic movie from beginning to end. 10/10

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I don’t think anyone has ever been a best friend to anyone else like Woodstock is to Snoopy. He is always warm, loyal and genuinely loves his friend. 

April Fool's Day (1986)

This was the first horror movie I ever saw in a theatre. I was barely elementary school aged and my mom told my big brother he could only go to the movies if he took me and my sister. He’d told her he was going to see something else (I can’t remember what) and then switched it up when we got there and told us not to tell mommy when we got home. We didn’t. I had nightmares that night. So I decided to rewatch all these decades later and now realize this movie only seemed scary because I had never seen one before. 😂
Grade: C-

I was too young to understand what I was looking at when I went with my brother and sister but got dang… Every other line had something to do with sex. They should’ve just axed the horror elements, put some breasts in this and just made it a porno. I can’t remember a movie being this sexual without showing any – I mean, every friggin joke was about boning? Well, I reckon now we know what poor writing looks like. If you have nothing to say, talk about sex.

Ms Miller

One of my favorite sketches from ‘A Black Lady Sketch Show.’ Gabrielle Dennis is one of the best all around actresses I’ve ever seen. I also need to shout out the young ladies who were so good in this I hope I see every one of them in projects in the future. They were all so good! 😂😂

The Heretic (2024)

Fantastic film. The writing was incredibly clever and the acting was brilliant. Some people would call it horror, some would call it psychological thriller.  All I know is the tension in parts was nearly unbearable. I felt true anxiety watching this.
Grade: A

Movies like this, filled with so much tension are why it is so hard for me to watch black horror films. I don’t mind experiencing tension like this in a movie but so many situations I see in real life where black folks are genuinely afraid and/or in harms way of something that is inescapable makes me sometimes physically ill. I felt true anxiety watching this and the last time I felt this type of anxiety in real life and much, much stronger was the George Floyd video. So I’m thrilled that no black folks were in this. I honestly don’t think I could watch if there were.

Gang Orientation

Another of the #ABLSS sketches and once again Gabrielle Dennis killed that ish. Everyone was good but every time I see this chick her range is just incredible.

All Quiet on the Western Front (2022)

I am not a person who normally watches or enjoys war or military based films. However sometimes as I’m looking for something to watch I just click on whatever the first thing I see that has a positive rating. I was pleasantly surprised here and appreciated how this film explored conflict by soldiers, not as heroes but as humans.
Grade: B-

I’m not sure this will count as spoiling but just showing appreciation for that the characters in this movie felt like real people and behaved in ways that you don’t often associate with the courageousness and honor that one associates with being in the military. I do not often think anything other than soldiers are the badasses of our society until I see them once they are back from their tours and are struggling both based on what they went through in the service and how they are treated once they return home.

You Don't Care

Preach it Rashonda! I cosign every word. 

Trump has only been in office a week and he is ten time’s as awful as he was during his last term. Feckless and hate filled. 

Never Scared

This might be the most gangsta sermon I’ve ever heard. Dude was preaching, sho’ ‘nough!

Conclave (2024)

I give credit where it is due, this was not nearly as boring as I thought it would be. Every movie doesn’t have to be an action movie if you have a compelling storyline, plot and characters.
Grade: B

My goodness they did the black priest dirty. But I’m not buying that sister girl didn’t know why she was there. As soon as she saw the dude she had to know that was the reason she was sent there. Ain’t no coincidence that big, it was planned. 

LOCK BOTH THEY ASSES UP!
Lock his ass up for making her feel like she needed to do this. And lock her ass up for doing it instead of leaving his ass when he requested her to do this. #Grammys

Christian Brothers & Sisters:
I’m looking for drivers for my new grocery delivery srvc.
“Jesus Took The Wheel”
#Eat&PrayAt30%Off

Eugene low temperatures for the last two weeks straight has been somewhere 19° – 27° every night. #Yikes

The Diddler

Another banger by @itsreal85vids

Pastor Matt

I always stop for any comedy that has to do with Christianity. Adele might be the funniest lady to ever do it.

I have found as I get older that music can be one of the most profound sources of therapy. #MusicIsHealing

I Met His Girl

@itsreal85vids has been on fire lately. And honestly this is perfect timing because a lot of us really need the laughs. 

How Thanksgiving for Franklin should’ve been from Jump Street. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

I can only name 3 horses: Shadowfax, Seabiscuit and Mr Ed. And no, Pegasus is not a horse. Horses can’t fly. Unicorn maybe?

Rome & Julissa

Before Greg and Janine on Abbott Elementary, there was Rome & Julissa. 

Assassin's Creed: Odyssey

What started out as a what I refer to as a cookie cutter game brought to you by Ubisoft turned out to be one of the top ten, possibly top five games I’ve ever played. 

Odyssey is the first game from this franchise that I played, and real talk… I was bored to pieces. Then I was talking to one of my gamer buddies (Tylo) and he was like, “keep going.” So after like maybe a half a year I put it back in, and tried it. Still bored. But this time I kept going and almost an hour in, the Title Screen popped up. I thought I was already playing the game, and it turns out I was just in the intro. I was about to put it down again and decided I would go to at least level ten, then I could tell Tylo I gave it a shot and it just wasn’t for me. Then…

One or two missions after the intro the game introduced a mechanic that literally changed the game for me. Out of 10 stars, the game went from like a 4 to a 13. And to this day I have still never seen another game with this exact mechanic, though there are some that are close, none of them comes near the level of fun and satisfaction. Then as you get deeper into the game it becomes super familiar, which is also nice, becasue all of the Greek mythology I studied in grade school – all of a sudden, I was revisiting it. Of civilizations outside of American, I would say that Ancient Greece was the one we studied most closely and spent the most curriculum on, so for me it was an incredible game. Even if you didn’t study Greek mythology or know anything about Greece this game is still a banger and I highly recommend it.

Grade: A

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Plenty to be thankful for. 

Midnight Mass

Me speaking on a decision Ubisoft made while participating in an online race against around 60 other racers. I don’t recommend it to everyone but for those who like racing, I have had a good time in #RidersRidge. It’s been out for a few years now so you can probably find a good deal on it on the interwebs.

Back maybe a year ago I used to do a stream two or three times a week on Twitch called ‘Midnight Mass.” In the game #RidersRepublic, they hold an event called a Mass Race every half hour (or I think it’s 20 minutes now) where you have to do sections of cycling, flying, and skiing. Since one always occurs at midnight, I would participate in that one and talk about things happening in the world during the race. This particular Midnight Mass my focus was on Ubisoft and an unsustainable model they just adapted that I think will hurt their business tremendously. It, in fact, has caused me to hesitate buying games from them. The Mass Race is usually about 15 minutes total.

Paroxycus

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